Okay no more procrastinating.

First here's a picture of my nails (: http://i288.photobucket.com/albums/ll169/Ishybite/IMG_2474-1.jpg

And here you go, me in a bikini. :x

Om noms for today:

Pita bread - 132cal

Tea (white, 3sugars) - 70cal?

Coffee (white, 1 sugar) - 30 cal?

Green tea - 0cal

Nearly a whole pizza - onebazzillioncal - purged

Exercise:

Dancing like a lunatic

Hour and a half walk

Jeans shopping (And don't be telling me thats not exercise xD it so is I broke a sweat)

Fuck knows what kind of calories I have buzzing around inside me hah.

Anywhoreeeeeee....

I got a new outfit and I fit into a size 11 jeans! yusssss!

Oh and I'm starting Tae Kwon Do some time in the near future which will be THE BOMB can't wait, my cans, well, they'll be so full of whoop ass, just you wait.

xo

Eilish

Would someone be a dear and tell me how to change the background etc of this blog? I can't for the life of me figure it out.

Baby is this love for real?

Awesome song. I wish I had an ipod cable so I could run to it, ahh that's life is it not?

Yesterday went well, sticked (that's not even a word xD *stuck) to my limits and then when I got home I took me and my sexy hands to the pool and did few laps. And if the eye candy at the pool isn't enough of a motivation I don't know what is ;) I sat in the sauna until I thought I'd puke. That's probably not good hah.

Wanna see my nails?!?! Well I'm sorry but I can't find my card reader so I'll upload a picture tonight xD Oh I'm such a tease

Back to work today shouldn't be too bad. I can't eat at work and todays fasting day.

This has got to be one of my all time favourite thinspo pics enjoy:

xo

Eilish

Lazy, lazy lazy.

Didn't post yesterday because I'm exactly that.
But that means you didn't get a picture of me half naked, which you should consider yourself lucky about. But brace yourselves, it's coming.

I gained two kgs WHAT THE FRIGGIT?!?! so today when I get my fat lazy ass out of bed I'll start my day of with some strength training then restrict with a max of 500cal.

I refuse to be a fat ass anymore.

On a plus side. I'm getting my nails done :D Frickin' woo!

I better get moving if I'm gonna be on time.

ciao ciao lovelies.

xo

Eilish.

Bored

I'm so, so bored and was looking through my old thinspo folder so I thought I'd post some (:

You have no facking idea.

What uncomfortable is.

I am so goddamned constipated. I have never needed to shit so bad in my life.

And I know that is not classy at all. Not the slightest bit glamourous, but this whole "don't eat, get skinny" shit has taken its toll and it is not pleasant. My stomach is so fucking sore I cannot even walk.

Right enough of that.

My progress just dived it's fat ass out the door and down the block. I binged yesterday as I mentioned, didn't excercise, got up and had breakfast, and hot chocolates and banana cake and muffins.

Holy mofo I'm such a fatty.

Diet starts tomorrow. It really has to. My formal is in a month and a half and I have to look half decent.

I'm making this dress:

http://butterick.mccall.com/filebin/images/product_images/Add_2_Full/B4919.jpg

Any way, I'm going to have a hot bath and a hot drink to try help ease this ailment of mine and I'll get back to you with the diet and exercise plan I come up with tomorrow.

xo

Sweet dreams :*

P.s. grab your buckets, tomorrow I'm posting a picture of myself in a bikini to help me nudge myself along and show how fat I really am.

Let's get this party started.

*clears throat*

Well, let me introduce myself.
My name is Eilish, I'm a 17 year old girl from christchurch New Zealand. Finishing my last year of high school soon then I'm off into the big bad world.
I've been struggling with anorexia on and off for the past 3 years, each time with different strengths. Up until recently I would have considered myself "fine" or I guess you could probably say recovered.
5 days ago it came rushing back with a hell of a force and this time, in the state that I'm in, I'm not gonna fight it. I will lose the weight I need to and I don't give a flying rats ass how I have to do it.

So, here are my current stats.
Height- 163cm
Weight- 70kgs (154lbs) Ew.
Goal weight- 65kg

I have decided when I get to my goal weights I will reward my self. For this I'm allowed to eat.
The next goal - 60kg - I will get my belly button pierced. And then, at 55kg, I will get a tattoo on my hip.

Right. I'm going to Finish my last ever binge (I was doing so well :'(), watch a movie with my brother and visit a friend then I will do my exercise. routine:

45min yoga (mtv yoga dvd, chick on the front is HOT)
Strength training - Crunches, push ups, squats, lunges etc
1 hour runHula hoop
Skipping.

Wish me luck

Outties xo